"Inside my crazy mind"
7:43 p.m. & Saturday, Feb. 25, 2006

Im not fucking wanted and I doubt I ever will be, im fucking sick of screaming out for attention and like always they just don't give a fucking toss, im always ignored, and I hate them so much now, I dream about slitting there throats and how id watch the blood gush from there wounds. They piss me off so fucking much! All I ever wanted was a little attention, every time I ask for something im either ignored or told no, but that little brat of a brother gets fucking everything and I hate him to, I think about stabbing him and chocking him, he fucking deserves it to, he's nothing but a spoilt little bastard!

Im at work again tomorrow and I don't feel well at all, ive been making myself sick for the past few days and eat little, most times at work I cant stop shaking and just tell them that im a little cold even though the ovens are on and fucking frying me. I don't think anyone would care either way to be honest, I mean ive been like this for ages and no fucker seems to notice, just like when I was being abused, no fucker noticed that either, and then they wonder why I get so pissed off at them, maybe its because you know fuck all about your fucking daughter, I doubt you'd even be able to give a fucking description of me if I went missing or something.

I don't want to get close to anyone now, its a fucking waste of time anyway, its not like anyone actually cares, they just force the bullshit down you throat about how much they would miss you and how much they actually give a toss, yet they seem to know fuck all about you, what's my favourite colour, how the fuck should I know, where's my favourite place, your room? wow im surprised you noticed! When's the last time we went out as a family, oh that's right I think were still waiting for that moment to arrive, I doubt it will ever come to be honest, maybe if I died then you'd be better off, more of a family and so on, maybe you should fucking marry work and she could be slave rather then me, I doubt you even care, fuck you, I hate you, you could fucking die for all I care, your nothing to me, just like im nothing to you.

Take my pain |and| Heal my sorrows